Thursday, July 24, 2008

A Call Unheard

This was my post i made more than five years before when i was out of college and missed my college badly and i miss it now too badly. But wonder now when i go we behave quiet differently everyone wants to pay when we are out to eat somewhere but during college times we used to fight for giving money for a drink or even a cigar. Everything changed but not our love over each other. Even now we all have the same love and wonder how u get to murmur to god for their wellbeing more than u. Thats friendship. Ok find my call to my classmates below-
Before I read deepus call for a get together I came to realize that college life is something I miss now and will miss forever. But when I read deepus call I couldn't stop my eyes flooding spontaneously. I was very eager to let out one such call but couldn't as I've been roaming around areas where still Internet is just another buzzword. At last I could spare sometime today to travel some 5 km to get to this Internet center. The moments I've spent in the class are nothing but special with my nocto boiz. I got everything I needed to be happy – "friends, friends and friends." There were moments our relationships were on boil and misleaded at times of crucial takeoffs. But thanks to some hearts who can take control of the situation and give the boost we needed in the form of WE Friends. Still we remained in total control of each other. I miss them the nocto boiz more than anything and anyone else and there's no point in denying the unwritten truth. The second year class with the formation of our troup made me feel I'm never alone and will never be alone. We strengthened each other's relationships and at least one had a deeper connection with the other. Hence the problems were sorted out by all of us in a really good way. I'm thankful for those precious hearts,which shaped us. There's a soul in me, which will always be gratitude to my friends. Then there went a huge cry for the class to be united & we did exactly that during our Edifice'03. We have to accept we succeeded coz' we worked together united. It was one of a success where almost everyone in the class worked single handedly. Here in this company there are times I'm stretched to and beyond my limits. But still I go on coz' I have got some shoulders to lean on whenever I'm feeling lonely and whenever I feel a bit of pain. Those times I call the mobiles of vimal, anbu, gopal and LAN line of kundan and Hyderabad number of karthi and many others without any reason. I feel most gifted when an sms messages come to me from these mobiles and mostly I'm given a smile as a gift. There are really hearts, which pray for each other, and the bond is there to stay. Whenever I'm hurt by some misbehavior I lonely go through the blanks of the sky as we used to do during our night study(?). I browse through my friends who glitter as stars and occasionally when some people around me close their eyes around me to wish when some stars fall, I closed my eyes not to see any such stars falling. Then the classroom is another major thing I miss. Sitting in the class, the times I received letters (piece of messages) from round the direction and the reply I used to send and the occasional teasing I get from the other side, then a message from gopal "Yenda…… MandiSumma utkara mudiyalaya" & suddenly I reply to him "…….Utkaruda".Then I get a harsh reply from him and after 5 minutes silence another paper comes from Gopal "Sorry if I hurted u Mandi I love u so much…" Then always enchanting kundan with his tilting kundan active always smiling and making us to smile with his lasery look??? Then comes another message to me from Deepu announcing his nth lover. But mind u again this time he promises to be sincere and following with a dialogue this is the last time he'll love and there will be no more lovers. I thought he is sincere at least this time, oh god there's another message from him "I think that (new) girl is nice & I love her sincerely. What to do Mandi".Then hero sir gives me a SOS call to help him from gopal beating him, I run to save him and then there gopal and I fight for nothing but fun with kundan smiling ferociously. Then there comes another flash news betted by anandavel that Mohan will not smoke hereafter. Then Shini comes and shouts to me that kundan has got her 10 Rs. and I tell him to give the money back. She thanks me but within 5 minutes I take her purse and loot 50 Rs. and then she shouts at someone else for help. Then Anbu says he has to contest the election against karthi and that he has no choice. We ask him not to do. But he too have no chance and he accepts that he will not win. I go with him along the geology lab and say him "sorry this time also I wont be able to vote for u". He accepts and says there's nothing in it. Then there comes vimal to picture, always with a smile no matter at what situation. Then comes kuruvi slowly to me and says "mmmmm Continue" Then a piece of Vazhakkai side dish from sheelas Tiffin box and I hear a notice from padma why don't u eat well these days take a little from my Tiffin box and I get her Tiffin box full and she screams I'll never ask u again to take anything from my Tiffin box. Then Karthi (CR) goes to announce something on stage & I'm still having a loud talk with someone. He shouts to me " Seenu don't talk" with a harsh voice. My face drops down and after an hours silence karthi tells to cool me "Don't talk like that". Then I shook my head with a bad smile. Then bavana goes along the window and my head turns to her side parallelly along with Deepu and gopu. Hero sir turns to see if we are seeing her. Then kundan goes to library and gets some 10 books. (Please note: All books written by foreign authors and none of the book bear his cardnumber) Then a gang says GATE boys. Sorry it's not GATE its gate. Have some 1 by 6 or 7 as a name given as national unity in a single dhum. Then someone says lets go to temple and swiftly the team is mobilized. There we have a nice sleep the nicest place in the universe to sleep. Then another team proclaims Friday funda. With a swift pace money is collected and the bikes are geared up towards Church (James court), Temple (Murugan wines) and mosque (Bhai kadai) depending upon the amount of fund collected.Then we rush towards the newly opened ECR wines. Then another team celebrates one-year anniversary for me on Feb 142003 in the side gate.Then there comes Raja saying he don't know vat to do, as she is still calling him Anna. Then vijayalakshmi tells screaming `no touching'. Then Rohini tells "idhunga rendukkum vera velaye ella" and arularasi nods it saying "adhana".Then sona calls me for golu in her house. Then there comes someone's b'day and money is collected and cake is purchased plus some special item for that particular person. For kundan idli+bonda, for karti cherry, for gopu bottle, for me barotta and so on. Then I write a paper to isai "anyone who wish to join new class mail service quickmail.com" and I get a reply "keep quiet. Don't keep nagging others in the class".(We murmur – "Padips") Then myself and Mohan fight so harshly but I still wonder when we again started to talk nicely when at that moment of fighting I say to myself I'll never talk to him again. Then same thing with kundan he tells in a hard voice "don't take from my plate (barotta)". Then I say I'll never take anything from ur plate again in my life and after all these days I came to know that I forget what I told and had taken from his plate from immediate next day. These are just egs and these thinks has occurred with almost all my friends and I never know when I forget those things and these things do really mean we cared, we loved, we shared and we sailed in the same boat friendship. Then there are some nice hearts in Mahesh, sampath etc., which still complains to me about a share and stint of my life. Then there comes antonyraj to me and says "Neenga mudichiteengala antha assignmenta" and I beg him not to call "neenga" and get back a smile as an answer. Then there comes a day when we r told this is farewell day. but still I promise I never realized that it was till that afternoon when everyone went to the stage and talked and then when we had a lunch my favorite barottas. Then something was kicking me from inside to let those few dozens drops away which I had to release in solidarity. My body did tremble when I laid myself on the ground on that ruthless day after our farewell party seeing those stars smiling at me saying its ur end of happiness.Then Yes it did made a punch on my face and I couldn't stop my tears falling when I saw tears in those two pair of eyes which belonged to different bodies but definitely of a same heart but still can't showout to each other. Very few will understand who those two souls are. And very few understand what that sacrifice means. But I have a wish those two souls be still one. Then there are so many thens to follow but I conclude to let u sometime to rest as for now.Then to end this continuation I declare "I MISS U SO MUCH MY FRIENDS"But i do regret i miss them and u.bye...

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Quest for Love

I have learnt just a lot from having been in Secon. Now I have a feeling that I can live any kind of condition and any kind of place. I have raced again time and languages to emerge a complete human. Meanwhile I continued to give as much attention as possible nut I know it was very meager to those who share a part of my breath. I wanted to be as much nearer but was destined to be as much farther I unintended to. Still something kept propelling and I am still wondering what is that I am still fighting out against others. I got too many opportunities and I never even considered getting away. Its as if u r working in ur own organization. Sometimes I get too wary about my attitude that I hate myself coz in the process of establishing myself I’ve lost some valuable things in life. I’ve lost time with my loved ones. I hated to be caught into tangles of too much complicated love but unfortunately I have just too many people to think about me that I feel I am in the brink of saying adieu. I’ve always wished for the best and God has always made sure I get the best. I got one of the best parents who have made me see tall always, I got my best friends to talk to me when I am down, I got a best wife who I admire for the way she has understood me all these years and I have got a best company wherein I am encouraged even when I fail. To believe that I am here wherein I’ve lost few of my bests to be at a place where sometimes u feel like asking urself “ What are u doing here?” I just reply to myself that’s the amswer I am searching for.